Mr. Bong and I decided that 2016 would be the year of baby. On April 2nd I took my last birth control pill after a 17-yr streak . I’ve been kind of excited at the possibility of getting pregnant soon and the excitement has kind of spread to my family; I am the oldest and both my parents and my siblings are both super giddy at the thought of a baby in the family. Sadly, I think my excitement has just turned into dread because of Zika. I don’t know why it never dawned on me before that this might be a big issue for me since I live in Texas. I don’t want to postpone getting pregnant, I’m 35. I have finally started to overcome my pregnancy fears, and instead I have been focusing on the positive. I don’t want to let that go; I don’t want to have to backtrack. What if I go back to being scared after the wait is over? But is it worth the risk? Or what if I’m pregnant now - unlikely, but still - and we get an epidemic here this summer and I get infected and I cannot get an abortion because my backwards ass state won’t allow me??? This freaks me out even more because I realize I don’t even know what the abortion laws are exactly in my state now! Anyway.. I was in such a good mood this morning and now I’m just really bummed out. I didn’t want to run to my husband and freak HIM out so I took to venting on this post hoping it would calm me down a bit. It is crazy to think that such big plans could be altered by one tiny insect.